Hapiness is in the eye of the beholder.
I was very adept with computers from an early age, and even though I was a poor student, I was constantly told how smart I was, how I could do great things and be successful. But in reality it just set me up for my downward spiral even harder. I do enjoy working with hardware and sometimes troubleshooting software issues (but not really my forte), and doing basic web design work.. But I just can't see myself doing it as a profession.
I don't like the idea of being stuck in some companies I.T helpdesk dept. Or working for some bullshit like Best Buy in "Geek Squad" (what self respecting person would work for a company called Geek Squad?). Part of it is I hate the idea of having to deal with people, or customers. The other part is, I just feel like I missed the boat. I have two uncles who worked for NASA (I think one still does as a contractor with Allied Signal or whoever, I never did know who he exactly worked for, but he works long hours during Shuttle missions)
The plan was to follow in their footsteps, have an awesome job and lots of money. So much for that. Never graduated, couldn't afford college if I wanted to go, have so many interests I have no idea what I would want to study (hardware? programming? web design? game design/programming? Music Production/Engineering? Journalism?) I kind of just gave up.
Yet I find myself strangely content with the work I've been doing the past couple of years. I work primarily alone as a Merchandiser for Nabisco, but at J.C Pennies I work with a good group of people and my boss is awesome, not some stickler asshole. Yeah I wish I made more than $1,000 (that's a -good- month) because I have medical expenses, I have severe dental problems and have been putting off having to pay a dentist to tell me what I already know (tooth has to be pulled) and then going somewhere else and paying them to do it..
But, at the same time it doesn't really bother me.. I've mellowed out a lot, or maybe I've just given up I'm not sure. But I have the same normal hopes and dreams that every blue collar American does, I work hard to get by, and I'm pretty happy for it otherwise.
Being happy doesn't have to be an illusion, but finding true happiness is the hard part.