On that note, that aspect of my life pisses me off.
...and yet you know it's entirely your responsibility.
Yes. Yes I do.
...which makes you excessively more depressed as time goes on.
Change. You know you need to change your attitude, or else you're sure you'll go mad from your self-defeating practises.
...but how can you change your attitude, you wonder?
Beats me, I'm conservative.