Bleh, my mother is not responding to my messages today >_,
WFT she is thinking dropping the news that my grandmother had some kind of hear or blood persure problem and had to be taken to the hospital yesterday and not responding today...been waiting for 2-3 h now >_<
Its not like I am found of my granny, but I would not like for her to die while I am away, my mom would slip into depression again and I do not want that. Well then again - I am quite useless when people need comforting when they loved ones die, I just stand around and let people cry all they want.
I remember this one time when em civil husband of my mother sister died and she did find me closes in family back then. And she was clinging all over me in funeral and crying like crazy and I had no fucking idea what to do....nor I felt like crying. I do not feel like crying in funerals.
Wow, harpy, you are quite heartlesss (nah, just kidding). But you know, I am the same, though no one has clinged on to me so far, and yeah, I don't really feel like crying though.
Maybe I shall shed some tears when someone I really care about passes, though I really don't want that either.
I do not see a point crying in funerals. I mean - person died ok lets cry, but I do not get all this idea of - lets get together and cry.
I wonder why funerals actually make me angry....
Hmmm, too much crying? I don't know, I don't really feel that way.
As I see funerals are about the person who died not the people who he/she left behind. So all that self pity and crying and so on just makes me angry. Lets concentrate on the person who died lets talk about him/her and stuff like that not go on crying. Its like a public demand for pity. Makes me wanna hit most people and scream - you did not die, the person die, let me be at peace with the death of a friend and stop demanding attention. Annoying.
Bleh, my mother is not responding to my messages today >_,
WFT she is thinking dropping the news that my grandmother had some kind of hear or blood persure problem and had to be taken to the hospital yesterday and not responding today...been waiting for 2-3 h now >_<
Its not like I am found of my granny, but I would not like for her to die while I am away, my mom would slip into depression again and I do not want that. Well then again - I am quite useless when people need comforting when they loved ones die, I just stand around and let people cry all they want.
I remember this one time when em civil husband of my mother sister died and she did find me closes in family back then. And she was clinging all over me in funeral and crying like crazy and I had no fucking idea what to do....nor I felt like crying. I do not feel like crying in funerals.
Wow, harpy, you are quite heartlesss (nah, just kidding). But you know, I am the same, though no one has clinged on to me so far, and yeah, I don't really feel like crying though.
Maybe I shall shed some tears when someone I really care about passes, though I really don't want that either.
Never been to funeral...
happy you
Up till my brother wedding 2 years ago I had only gone to funerals. I had a quote of at least one funeral per year since I was 14-15 >_>
I think now that spell is broken...well I hope. I am sick and tired of funerals.
At first they were quite fun, its is interesting to watch people at funerals, for some reason then they do not work so hard on hiding their emotions (the oens that show on face) good or bad.
