I think this is the worst week of my life. It's like my life exploded in my face. It's horrible. I am so stressed and it's the first week of school which only adds to the stress. I have worked so hard to be a good wife and mother, but apparently it hasn't been enough. I don't even know what happened. My husband just came home and said he wasn't happy. He told me all these things that I just don't understand. Part of it may be stress related, but some of it is out of the blue. I thought things were going
great. We were getting along great, granted there was that little issue earlier which I handled very nicely and maturely. We have been going out and having fun and do a lot of things together. He says he isn't going to leave me, but he doesn't know what he wants.
I don't really know what he thinks a real marriage is supposed to be like. He said he feels trapped and like we have grown apart. Like there is no connection. He gives me all these mixed signals and I don't know what to think. I love him so much and only want to be with him. We worked really hard to build a family. I just don't know how it goes from one extreme to another. I am so scared and confused. It is the worst feeling in the world.
He is being so selfish, and there is nothing I can do about it. I have to suck it up and hold it all in because he still doesn't know what he wants. It's so unfair. I don't know how much longer I can stay strong. I am so stressed that I can't even eat. I can't sleep at night either. I have been falling asleep in class and have been shaking for the past 2 days. I try to eat and it makes me physically ill. I have cried more in the past couple of days than I have in a year. I can't even talk to someone on the phone without bursting into tears.
I won't be posting anymore. I'll miss everybody here, it was a great place to just talk to other people and relax.
