I couldn't hold it anymore, it wasn't my intention, I've just told her that I love her. We were talking on MSN like we always do, saying nice things and stuff. We agreed to see each other tomorrow, I'll go to her house like last Friday. But at some point the conversation turned really nice, cute and lovely. We went like this for almost two hours or so, from talking about the positions of the kama sutra to saying several times "I like you very much" and those kind of things you say when you are in... love. We were in this when my heartbeats and breath went really heavy, not fast, heavy. I put my hand on my chest and I could easily feel my heart beating

. I didn't last long like this. Without knowing I saw in the window:
Sakura says:
In some way...
I love you
You are so nice with me
I really love you
There it goes. Nice way of confessing your love, over a chat window of MSN

. She seemed to ignore it at first, but she started talking to me in a more "lovely and nicer" way (I don't know how to say it). I know she read what I wrote. I wish I could know what she is thinking now. I didn't want to say her anything. We are just friends who have a nice time together. But, well, tomorrow I'll tell her what I really feel for her. I hope she loves me too

. I never had a girlfriend.
PS: Btw, she loves when my heart beats like that. I remember my first time having sex (it was with her a few months ago). She invited me to her house to see anime. It was my idea to see anime, and we saw Ef - A Tale of Memories. At about 5 a.m. when Memories finished... it happened. My heart was almost coming out of my chest and my breathing was very heavy. Yet she was calmed (compared to me) and seemed to enjoy my condition (little bitch

). To make it short I won't explain all the details, but although I couldn't came that time, it was a nice experience ^^